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Bidadari pagi
engkau bidadari pagi
engkau ratu di hari ku

engkau adalah embun
yang dilahirkan dan menetes
di saat mentari bersemi

engkau adalah sepi yang datang
di antara petir badai yang menderu

engkau adalah sejuk
yang angin bawa di februari

engkau adalah sinar
yang mentari lahirkan
setelah fajar yang pergi

engkau adalah air mata
yang tangis ku bawa
ketika membayangkan kita berdua

engkau adalah alasan
mengapa duniaku
ada…..

-el jomblo-

fake plastic love?

kehidupanku selalu tidak
seperti yang kuharapkan
ada saja halangan
katamu membikin aku ragu
kerna ianya penuh dengan kepalsuan

mengapa harus terjadi
apa yang tak diingini
aku tidak mengerti
buat sekian kali
dirimu tak bisa ku miliki
kehendakmu tak bisa ku penuhi

percuma saja diri ini
mencintai seseorang yang tidak dikenali
membayangi sesuatu yang sangat bererti
sedih bila mengetahui ianya tak mungkin terjadi
seumpama menyakiti hati sendiri

Biar Pergi

I feel so down when you are gone
You filled my emptiness
‘cos you have showed me something new
A world I never knew

You made me cry
And made me feel
The joy I never felt
I thought you’d always be right here
And never go away

My carelessness have caused me pain
I should have never hoped for you
to be right here
Right by my side

But I am glad
That I met you
You showed a whole new world to me
I learnt that life is worth going through
Even by myself…

But I regret to have ever let you go away
Because I know that you could never reply
my feelings back
so I had to let you go

Insomnia oh Lavinia

disaat ombak laut berdesir pantas
aku saksikan sesuatu yang tidak pasti
bukan kenyataan malah hanyalah khayalan
kerana kehadiranmu disisiku menjadi harapan

keindahanmu satu persatu menyala
kecantikanmu satu persatu terbukti
keluhuranmu satu pancuran warna buatku
membuatkanku insomnia oh lavinia

merangkak didalam kegelapan
mencari erti sebuah cinta
memilih kata hati yang berbicara
kata hati tanpa bunyi
kata perasaan tanpa seruan

melihatmu membuatkanku ingin memiliki
memaksakan diriku terus menanti
menanti sesuatu yang belum pasti
namun tiada apa yang harus ditangisi

Bagaimanakah caranya?
adakah ini satu soalan tanpa jawaban?
ataupun soalan tanpa tanya?
huraian tanpa maksudnya
mengundang sebuah kebibungan
yang datang tanpa diundang

serahkanlah saja pada-Nya
dan mungkin ini….
aku sendiri yang tahu…

Life or something like it

Life is a prison,
Oh God let me out.
No one to listen,
To hear when you shout.

Climb the walls of insanity,
Ride the waves of despair.
If you fall it don’t matter,
There’s no one to care.

Used to wish for a window,
To see birds, trees and sky,
But you’re better without one -
Stops you aiming too high.

Watching freedom is painful,
For those locked away.
Seeing joy, love and happiness,
Another price that you pay.

Strong is good, weak is bad.
Be it false, be it true.
Your mind makes the choice,
And enforces it too.

Cell walls built by society,
With rules to adhere.
If you breach the acceptable,
You had better beware.

Hide the pain, carry on,
Routine is the key.
Don’t let on that you’re not,
What you’re pretending to be.

Lock it all up inside you,
How badly that bodes.
Look out for that one day,
When it all just explodes.

Leaving naught but a shell,
Base functionality too.
But killing all else,
That was uniquely you.

So how do you grow,
With a timebomb inside?
Or how to defuse it,
Without destroying its ride?

You can’t.

a fool like me

Why does it hurt so bad
to lose something I never had
To have these feelings and nothing to do
just sit around and waiting for you
Why is it so hard to move on
knowing what we had is gone
Is there a place where happiness is
Even though there’s still a fizz
In my soul when you are around
your name is a beautiful sound
Now all I can do is wonder
I lost it all in one little blunder
By not telling you how I really feel
trying to act like its no big deal

Yet I can’t now my heart won’t let me
get rid of a person who fills me with glee
Just by hearing her sweet name
Knowing my feelings are still the same
I must move on to a new life
Leaving behind my feelings and the strife
I am only human and I am weak
But for you there was a beautiful streak
I would do anything to repent the day
When you hung on my words waiting to say
What I really wanted from you
I chose the wrong words for an excuse
Now I am on a new track
I know I can’t hold back
No matter what I do or how I try
I have lost the apple of my eye

need or want?

When you need me but do not want me,

then I will stay.

When you want me but no longer need me,

then I have to go.

It’s rather sad, really, but there it is.

Hungry for the world

I was hungry.
I asked for food.
Angry voices yelled, “Get out you fool.”
I needed a warm place to sleep. “Not here you look too cheap.”
I needed a shoulder to cry on….Social Worker would only yawn.
I needed medical attention…Doctor replies
“Your medicine is on suspension.”
I was stereotyped as mentally ill.
Nurse replies wait…”I have a psychotic pill.”

I walk the streets all I hear is bad views about the homeless on
Television news. I say to myself this could happen to you.
I always remember what my teacher taught me ”…feed the hungry and take care of the poor..”

“I may be homeless, BUT not hopeless or worthless!”
 

 

useless can be something beautiful

Man will always be man,
there’s no new man,
we tried so hard to create,
a society that was equal,
where there’d be nothing,
to envy your neighbour,
but there’s always something to envy,
a smile, a friendship.
Something you dont have and want to appropriate.
prayers shall not be granted,
screams shall not be heard,
In this world,
there will always be rich and poor,
rich in gifts, poor in gifts.
rich in love, poor in love.
sad to have a dream you know won’t happen.

Justice will never perish!

in this new century
nobody loves their country
nobody want this world to be harmony
we are friend but we are not enemy
all of us were born to be free

killing hundreds of people wont make any difference to this world

near or far what we hear is only war
we no more can see the shining of the star
fame or shame
war is not like playing games
who’ll take responsible to be blamed

no peace has been achieved with or without fighting

how much blood has been shed?
how many tears have been dropped?
just as justice will never perish
lets get under our knees and wish…….